What is coming over me?
not even I can see..
words flooding into my head
in the darkness of the night
this difficult plight, torturing me
while I fight to dream,
There lies a creature, in my head
cajoling, bribing and stealing my rest
a stranger to my small brain
a sudden request...
of my blood, my being, my totality
threatening at times with sudden sweats,
abrupt awakenings, to my regret,
I try hard to ignore,
when he comes to my door,
I cannot put up a battle with an enormous being,
much larger than me, I'm struggling furiously,
I just want to break free.
Before I was blinded, and I could not see
what was really happening to me.
I deny those words that dance in my head
waltzing and twirling making me dread
the dark of the night,
when the day is no longer bright,
light and joy filled,
my eyes try so hard to rest
but inside this insane head of mine
there's a party going on
words and chiming rhymes
that collide, as if fighting a war,
trying to survive, agitated and
struggling to stay alive...
...I tremble and shake...
Will I forget when I awake?
I cannot resist, my heart in a quake
I stumble to change that busy scene in my head
I try to think intensely of other things instead.
I struggle to lay while a breaking new day
is drowning my thoughts, leading me astray.
My senses anew, I have to write down,
I decide to get up, my head in the clouds
those strange tales in my mind
...they're galloping ahead in time,
I'll lose them if I rest, I cannot resist,
If I were to forget, I'd be forever lost,
wondering and thinking
"Where are they gone?"
As if children of mine, these stupid rhymes.
Abandoning me.... their mother.
Written by Anna Di Muro